TheLadyJemnezmy

Funny how hearing something, even if it hurts, can change everything so dramatically! I've finally been able to let go of something that had been cutting me up for far too long. You know what? I feel the best I have felt in years. I've somehow began to change my entire perspective now as a result. I finally cut out the things that dragged me down and got back to doing what I should have been doing in the first place. Living. As a result, I'm out most nights, I'm starting to meet new people. I feel differently about myself. Better in fact. I'm taking pretty much every evening as an opportunity to go out and meet people, even if it means bravi

As a general rule, I've more or less cut out the social networking sites out completely, with the odd sporadic update here and there. They have been so counter-productive and all it takes is to see one little thing and I'm off in tears again. It's best to remove myself from scenarios that upset me. It's just not worth it. I've made myself ill on numerous occasions, had panic attacks, cried hysterically. Mainly because one way or another, my self-esteem has been totally obliterated. Looking at everything that's happened lately, I guess I have started to realise that it's not my fault. I've done my best to be the best person I can be under th

I tend to write on these when I have a lot of conflicting feelings and don't know how to talk to people about them directly. I'm feeling a complete and utter state right now since yesterday afternoon. I won't go into too many details on here but I really am shook up. I feel incredibly hurt and confused and I wonder if circumstances could have been different. Either way, I can't stop crying and I feel at a complete loose end. I have no appetite either and really can't face the thought of eating. I think what is really really getting to me is that now I have taken a step back I have a million new questions to ask but I know I can't now beca